Well its day 6. I had my first weigh in with my coaches and its official... I've lost 2 lbs! I wasn't expecting much this first week as I know it can take a while to start seeing results but I have to tell you, this reinforced my excitement and I think is the boost I needed to face the temptations that will most certainly come my way this weekend. Since my last post I have followed my regimen religiously. Not missing a beat. I haven't been hungry or had any cravings. I have discovered that I make an AMAZING warm quinoa salad and have even gained some welcomed support from my spouse. The hardest part so far is making sure that I am getting enough clean protein. Oh and the fact that I haven't exercised AT ALL. I should probably start huh?
The Challenge: Getting through this coming weekend. My mother who LOVES to feed us will be in town and we are having my son's 5th birthday party.... Ninja Turtles =Pizza Birthday= Cake. And of course the annual 4th of July BBQ.
I am determined to stay on track. I need to find a way to tell my mother no when she wants to cook or buy us food without hurting her feelings and I need to just have complete self control! Food has been my weakness for a very long time.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Just A Little Bump In the Road
Hello all. Its been a lazy Sunday with my boys, we have had a day full of watching youtube videos, playing with the hose outside and excavating dinosaurs :) I love days like this when it is just me and my littles using our imagination and laughing, frequent hugs and lots of "I love you's". These are the days that make life wonderful and allow me to truly recognize my purpose and to enjoy them while they are small.... they won't be small forever.
I have had a lot of emotions this weekend. I find I have to keep busy in order to keep sane some days. Too much time sitting still tends to get me to think to much and begin to stress. Not even about anything in particular really, just life.
Saturday was especially tough. My spouse and I fought most of the day... it wasn't even about anything important, seems so silly. So he spent the day cleaning bedrooms and I spent the day playing with the kids and cleaning the living areas. I wanted badly to turn to food to deal with the stress of the situation and in a way, I guess I did. I cooked. I cooked a lot. BUT I didn't eat. I didn't stray from my diet...yet. Then my day got worse. I had a date with my best friends for a girls night. We have been planning a paint therapy session for nearly a month and I have been talking about it to my man, he knew how excited I was. The session started at 6:30 and at 6:35 he still wasn't home ... he had left an hour and a half prior to buy fireworks with my son. I was crushed. So let down and disappointed. I even cried a little. Inside I was so very angry. He finally got home around 7, immediately apologizing and realizing what he had done. He had completely forgotten. I did make it to the session, 45 minutes late, but I made it and boy did I need that girls night more than ever now. I had told myself I would limit myself to one drink (crystal light lemonade and vodka). Well, I had two. Then I went to my co-workers graduation party, she recently graduated from a Respiratory Therapy School. I brought a friend along because I knew I wouldn't know very many people AND it was at a bar, which is an environment I am very uncomfortable in. I have only been to a bar maybe 3 times in 5 years. I hate them. I am so self conscious about myself, I truly hate going to any public environment where I have to be around many people. I am truly socially awkward sometimes.... and was feeling this way this night and so... a few more drinks (diet coke and rum) were consumed.... This was probably a terrible decision because 1, I was breaking my own commitment through calories in my alcohol consumption and 2, I haven't been eating as much and I don't usually drink liquor. I don't usually drink much at all. So now I start talking too much and well, lets just say I am glad its over. I really need to learn to love myself. I hate feeling so out of place, so uncomfortable in my own skin. I feel like people are always staring and judging, even though the rational part of me knows this is not the case. I wonder if this will ever get better. So yep, Day 3 and I failed myself, I did not turn to food to deal with my stress and anxiety, I did however turn to alcohol which I am ashamed of.
Today was a new day and I stayed on track. I had a perfect day with the perfect people, my man and I are getting along great and I made a perfect dinner~ (Cajun Seasoned Tilapia & Eggplant stuffed with warm quinoa salad w/broccoli & carrot slaw, onions, eggplant, garlic, tomatoes and sweet peppers). I can say these three days, the only time I have been hungry was the first night. This has been helpful with controlling the urge to graze. I am loving the Herbalife Tea and the energy that I have. I will view yesterday as simply a bump in the road and keep moving forward. I am human, I am a real person, I will make mistakes from time to time. I can't let them destroy my motivation or progress. The positive from last night was while I was at this party I met several others who were Herbalife members and they have invited me to do their fit club workouts with them, so in all of it, there was some good. I am going to choose to not be too terribly hard on myself.
I thought about leaving this experience out of my blog but then I feel like I would be lying to myself and to you. And that is not helpful to any of us. Happy Sunday all! I hope yours is as wonderful as mine.
I have had a lot of emotions this weekend. I find I have to keep busy in order to keep sane some days. Too much time sitting still tends to get me to think to much and begin to stress. Not even about anything in particular really, just life.
Saturday was especially tough. My spouse and I fought most of the day... it wasn't even about anything important, seems so silly. So he spent the day cleaning bedrooms and I spent the day playing with the kids and cleaning the living areas. I wanted badly to turn to food to deal with the stress of the situation and in a way, I guess I did. I cooked. I cooked a lot. BUT I didn't eat. I didn't stray from my diet...yet. Then my day got worse. I had a date with my best friends for a girls night. We have been planning a paint therapy session for nearly a month and I have been talking about it to my man, he knew how excited I was. The session started at 6:30 and at 6:35 he still wasn't home ... he had left an hour and a half prior to buy fireworks with my son. I was crushed. So let down and disappointed. I even cried a little. Inside I was so very angry. He finally got home around 7, immediately apologizing and realizing what he had done. He had completely forgotten. I did make it to the session, 45 minutes late, but I made it and boy did I need that girls night more than ever now. I had told myself I would limit myself to one drink (crystal light lemonade and vodka). Well, I had two. Then I went to my co-workers graduation party, she recently graduated from a Respiratory Therapy School. I brought a friend along because I knew I wouldn't know very many people AND it was at a bar, which is an environment I am very uncomfortable in. I have only been to a bar maybe 3 times in 5 years. I hate them. I am so self conscious about myself, I truly hate going to any public environment where I have to be around many people. I am truly socially awkward sometimes.... and was feeling this way this night and so... a few more drinks (diet coke and rum) were consumed.... This was probably a terrible decision because 1, I was breaking my own commitment through calories in my alcohol consumption and 2, I haven't been eating as much and I don't usually drink liquor. I don't usually drink much at all. So now I start talking too much and well, lets just say I am glad its over. I really need to learn to love myself. I hate feeling so out of place, so uncomfortable in my own skin. I feel like people are always staring and judging, even though the rational part of me knows this is not the case. I wonder if this will ever get better. So yep, Day 3 and I failed myself, I did not turn to food to deal with my stress and anxiety, I did however turn to alcohol which I am ashamed of.
Today was a new day and I stayed on track. I had a perfect day with the perfect people, my man and I are getting along great and I made a perfect dinner~ (Cajun Seasoned Tilapia & Eggplant stuffed with warm quinoa salad w/broccoli & carrot slaw, onions, eggplant, garlic, tomatoes and sweet peppers). I can say these three days, the only time I have been hungry was the first night. This has been helpful with controlling the urge to graze. I am loving the Herbalife Tea and the energy that I have. I will view yesterday as simply a bump in the road and keep moving forward. I am human, I am a real person, I will make mistakes from time to time. I can't let them destroy my motivation or progress. The positive from last night was while I was at this party I met several others who were Herbalife members and they have invited me to do their fit club workouts with them, so in all of it, there was some good. I am going to choose to not be too terribly hard on myself.
I thought about leaving this experience out of my blog but then I feel like I would be lying to myself and to you. And that is not helpful to any of us. Happy Sunday all! I hope yours is as wonderful as mine.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Day 1 Pics - 5'4" 185 lbs BMI 32 (Obese)
Here are my beginning pics. Trust me when I say I feel this particular camera was friendly to me. Sad huh? I took these today and so they are new. I will update pics at least bi-weekly to show progress, or lack there of. As you can see I collect fat in my back and mid section and upper arms. I cannot wait to get rid of it!
Food Journal for Friday June 27, 2014
Good Morning! I woke up today as excited today as I was yesterday. The only bad thing, is I was so excited that I had trouble sleeping. Well that and my Cell-U-Loss, which is an herbal diuretic is clearly working as I had to get up to go to the bathroom several times. I know this will calm down once my body gets rid of all of the fluid I've been retaining, I am actually very glad it is working as I suffer from edema and night and my feet just ache as a result. My mind was just racing, thinking of all of my options and all of the possibilities. I have already mapped out my meals for the day. I will report at the end of the day whether or not I stuck to it or deviated. However, at this time I have no plans to deviate.
Breakfast:
Herbalife Shake, Herbalife Tea and Supplements (Cell Activator, Multivitamin, Cell-U-Loss)
Total Protein: 9g
Total Calories: 175
Snack:
Chobani Greek Yogurt (Apple Cinnamon), Herbalife Tea
Total Protein: 12g
Total Calories: 125
Lunch:
Herbalife Shake, Herbalife Tea and Supplements (Multivitamin, Cell-U-Loss)
Total Protein: 9g
Total Calories: 175
Snack:
Side Salad (Spinach & Spring Mix, Cottage Cheese, Mushrooms & Salsa)
Herbalife Tea
Total Protein: 15g
Total Calories: 155
Dinner:
Tilapia (2 Filets), Sweet Potato, Side Salad (Spinach & Spring Mix, Cottage Cheese, Mushroom & Salsa), Small Side of Green Seedless Grapes and Strawberries), Herbalife Tea and Supplements (Cell Activator, Multivitamin, Cell-U-Loss)
Total Protein: 59g
Total Calories: 580
Todays Projected Protein Intake: 104g Projected Caloric Intake: 1210
I will check in tonight with my progress and with my before pics so we have something to compare to as I progress in my lifestyle change.
Update: This was a good day... I did not stray!
Update: This was a good day... I did not stray!
Thursday, June 26, 2014
I got the package today! Here is to a new start!
Hi! Welcome to my Blog! I hope you decide to follow my Journey!
To give a little background about me, I am a 35 year old woman who is in a lifetime partnership with a man and I have 4 children. I also work 3 jobs, 1 of which is very demanding physically and the other which is very demanding mentally and of my time. The other is very special to my heart. I will talk about those in a future post. My schedule is always packed full and I am generally always overwhelmed. I don't sleep well, I worry all of the time and despite having 3 jobs, I am basically broke. My life is far from perfect, super stressful and my relationship is anything but understanding and supportive. Saying all of that, I do love my man, he is a good man, just very high strung and we could use a little work. Okay ALOT of work. I suppose that is what a relationship is, a lot of work. And I could probably put in more on my end. I do have a wonderful group of close friends, some that I have known for over 20 years and others only 7 years... I am lucky there. My family was just as screwed up as everyone else's growing up and I choose not to blame my life choices on that, rather I like to think that I have learned from it. I have a wonderful mother and she is my hero, the strongest person I have ever known and my saving grace. When I was younger I had my share of dysfunctional relationships including a failed marriage.
In this blog, I have decided to hold nothing back, so if I give too much information, please forgive me but I want people to be able to relate to me, or maybe not relate at all but at least understand where I come from, what my challenges are and where I am going. The main focus of this blog will be my weight loss journey and my journey to a healthier lifestyle. It is somewhat my source of accountability.
To give a little background about me, I am a 35 year old woman who is in a lifetime partnership with a man and I have 4 children. I also work 3 jobs, 1 of which is very demanding physically and the other which is very demanding mentally and of my time. The other is very special to my heart. I will talk about those in a future post. My schedule is always packed full and I am generally always overwhelmed. I don't sleep well, I worry all of the time and despite having 3 jobs, I am basically broke. My life is far from perfect, super stressful and my relationship is anything but understanding and supportive. Saying all of that, I do love my man, he is a good man, just very high strung and we could use a little work. Okay ALOT of work. I suppose that is what a relationship is, a lot of work. And I could probably put in more on my end. I do have a wonderful group of close friends, some that I have known for over 20 years and others only 7 years... I am lucky there. My family was just as screwed up as everyone else's growing up and I choose not to blame my life choices on that, rather I like to think that I have learned from it. I have a wonderful mother and she is my hero, the strongest person I have ever known and my saving grace. When I was younger I had my share of dysfunctional relationships including a failed marriage.
In this blog, I have decided to hold nothing back, so if I give too much information, please forgive me but I want people to be able to relate to me, or maybe not relate at all but at least understand where I come from, what my challenges are and where I am going. The main focus of this blog will be my weight loss journey and my journey to a healthier lifestyle. It is somewhat my source of accountability.
Well after watching the success with skepticism of people I work with, I decided to give in. I, after all am 60 lbs overweight and miserable. My feet hurt everyday, I have ailments that at my young age of 35 I simply should not have. I am not a good dieter and not a fan of yo yo diets or fad diets. I have heard of Herbalife, like everyone else many times over the years. Ive even got the work from home emails, etc. that I just rolled my eyes at when I found out what it was. Herbalife..... yeh, yeh. What a scam right? Maybe not.... Before you click off this blog read on. Don't worry, I am not trying to sell anything. I want to take you on this Journey with me, to see what this Herbalife is really all about.
As I mentioned earlier, I have been watching some ladies at work have great success and started doing some research. There are some really terrible things on the internet about Herbalife if you are looking for the nay sayers, but I also found some very inspiring stories, not just on the business side but from customers as well, even locally. In fact, they have free fit clubs and coaches and if you are in with the right people, they really care and are very supportive. You need to find a distributer who is in the business for the right reasons. I started to think it was like anything else in life, its what you put in to it, at least I hope. We will find out. Or am I just a gullible fool? Time will tell.
Last week, I went to Texas to visit my mother. She had a bariatric surgery last year and is so small. Her surgery however was more for health benefits as she is off of her blood pressure meds now and is feeling better than ever. I am so very proud of her. I felt so big and I guess in a way it gave me new motivation. A few days ago, I called on a friend of a friend that I knew was a Herbalife distributer. I had mentioned to my spouse I was going to do this and he all but begged me not to exclaiming that it is all a scam and it will never work and even if it could, I would never stick to it anyway. His lack of support was very upsetting to me as I had already decided this was something I was going to try. I met with this mutual friend anyway at his new store and listened to what he had to say. I bought in, after all what did I have to lose? Weight, right? We will see. I signed up as a member, admittedly to get the discount and expressed that I have no desire to sell the product as I am already overwhelmed with work and do not have the time. I got no resistance, only support. I left feeling excited to start something new...
I LOVE FOOD. So getting rid of the carbs and retraining myself how to eat healthy is a scary notion. I am willing to do it however. It has to be done. I am so tired of being sick and tired... and in pain. Today, I received my package... I cannot express how excited and hopeful I am. I started immediately replacing two of my meals today with shakes and drinking the herbal tea instead of my usual coffee and taking 3 supplements. I will admit. I am hungry, but it is day 1 and so I figure it is to be expected. I do have more energy than I have had in a while. It could be the excitement for the decision to make a change however. The mind is powerful. I weighed in today at 185 and my BMI is 32. Obese.... I feel disgusting. I have set short and long term goals for myself and have vowed to only weigh myself once a week (each Saturday). My short term goal is to lose 2 lbs a week. My long term goal is to be at 130 lbs by the end of the year.
I plan to use this blog to journal my daily struggles, challenges and successes as well as my honest thoughts, feelings and experiences both in everyday life and regarding Herbalife. I am going to follow the program as strictly as possible and I figure then my question on whether or not it is worth the hype will be answered. As will yours, if you were ever interested. Tomorrow I will post before body pics. I will do this once every 2 weeks so we can watch the progression together. I will cut my face out until I have reached my goal weight for anonymity purposes as I am not comfortable with putting myself completely out there just yet.
Tonight, I am going to bed hungry, unlike most nights, I will not go and raid the refrigerator. I am going to try and get some sleep and wake up to Day 2. I am tired of not being able to fit into any of my clothes. I am tired of hating the way I look in everything when I try on clothes. I hate that I am a size 16 when I have been a 9 most of my life. I am tired of feeling exhausted all of the time. I am tired of being the big girl when out with my friends. I am tired of always giving up. So it is time for a change in lifestyle, a change in mindset and here I am starting my new Journey. I can't wait to have more energy for my kids, to not be in pain everyday and to feel beautiful again. I hope you come on this Journey with me. Please feel free to follow and share. Goodnight World Wide Web. I will see you tomorrow!
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